The Empty Hole

Posted by on Aug 3, 2010 in 2010, Choken Word, psychology, Religion, Spirituality

the closest i have ever come to God
is right here.
typing words that appear
as if I am being guided.

the closest i have come to facing death
is right here.
telling stories of when i was broken.
telling stories of when i felt chosen.

to continue to live.
to continue to walk again.

the closest i have come to communion
with the universe.
is through this process.
and the time I invest.

in the infinite.
space that can not be caressed.
the bits and bites within this site.
friends and enemies I love and fight.

the strongest i have ever felt is right here.
writing words that bring me to tears.
to share with you all as if in confession.
as if you are my priest in this lesson.

in order to be one i must come undone.
share the secrets i have kept for years.
let you know of my cancer fears.
so that you might find strength.

so that you might realize your fullest potential.
i am disposable, just merely a vessel.
to help you realize we all have that empty hole.
to help you see the light within your soul.

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  1. Byron King
    August 3, 2010

    My wife told me this had a bit of a Messiah complex thing going. i do believe all of this. i would gladly toss away my life so that the many could find peace.

    i’m sure Jesus was a good guy too. i don’t think being willing to sacrifice one’s life for the many should be reserved for Jesus alone. when we speak of sacrifice we tip toe about not comparing ourselves to Jesus when we all have the potential to walk on water. i mean symbolically of course.

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  2. Byron King
    August 3, 2010

    Rereading right now I believe, this is one of the worst yet. I’m not sure what I’m trying to prove here but I think I’m going to take a vacation for a few days.

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  3. Greg
    August 3, 2010

    Hope you find what you need on your sabbatical globa. I personally liked the poem, especially the fears that voice in our heads everyday. Yeah cancer is a big one for me also. Find some peace Globa.

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  4. crystl37
    August 6, 2010

    byron I dont think you have a messiah complex, this piece was obviously from your heart, from you, as byron, not as globatron, the neo-pagan philosophical poet of the apocalypse or whatever it was I called you that time.

    I feel you, and I greatly appreciate your sharing, as always.

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  5. Byron King
    August 6, 2010

    thank you Angie. I thought so to but i have my doubts these days. Thanks Greg as well. Too kind of you both. I have a bit of thinking to do on what/where I want to take my writing and why I am doing it.

    I have started most of this for legacy. To have something to pass down. I have a lot of content now for which my children can learn about me in the future if the time comes and the interest is there.

    I’m wondering why I feel such urgency. I have spoken about how time is a lie. If I believe that then maybe I should not be in such a rush to live and write.

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  6. crystl37
    August 6, 2010

    Time is an illusion, but its an illusion we have to deal with, thats where I think the urgency comes from. Parodoxes, the universe is built on them.

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