Akbar’s Confession

I love first-person shooters! That’s right!

If you read this blog regularly you probably know that I am a radical pacifist, believing that war is never an option for solving a problem. In fact, I don’t believe that countries ought to have standing armies, or that soldiering should be a career option. These are all offensive to me on a deep level, and I want my life to represent that.

However, I love the Call of Duty games, love em. Check this video out, if you look at it from a purely technological perspective it’s amazing. This is Modern Warfare 2, the much anticipated sequel to the first Modern Warfare, the first in the Call of Duty franchise to get me hooked. You can play this game online, fighting with up to 17 other players, from anywhere in the world in real time. the level of integration and graphics and strategy is amazing to me in a purely artistic way.

As far as I’m concerned playing this game only reaffirms the futility of war, as there is no strategy that is perfect. In other words, even the best players get blown to bits by accidents of placement and random fire. When I play this I think of how ridiculous and horrifying real war must be. I’m not justifying it, I am merely expressing my confusion about how people play these things and are even more enthused for battle. In the end, I think my engagement with these games are contrary to my highest principles, but I am not a saint, and I have no confusion about my stance against militarization. If I were asked to sacrifice playing these games for the elimination of the military I would in a heartbeat, but in the meantime i’m still trying to unlock my flamethrower from the last game World at War! Seriously though, I am aware that these games are funded by the armed ‘services’ and marketed to young kids who perhaps don’t have the same understanding of mortality that I have. I remember being a kid and not really conceptualizing the idea of death, and that made me underestimate the value of my life.

anyways, this site also explores issues of coming technological progress, which is often related to warfare, and these games are technologically amazing. You make the call!




  1. globatron
    October 20, 2009

    Nothing wrong with a little bit of ultraviolence mate. These kids in the video below don’t seem to think so either. The next generation soldier is being trained on these RPGs. I personally feel deeply that RPGs are at the core of our cultures change in violence since my childhood. I don’t remember any mass murder school shootings when I was growing up but I was only playing duck hunt back then. I must admit though they can be super fun. Do you feel guilty taking joy in something that is seen by many to be a moral illness of our culture?

  2. globatron
    October 21, 2009

    Duck Hunt for the NES circa 1984. Not nearly as realistic. I wonder how it compares on the entertainment factor? Those Atari and Nintendo games seemed pretty realistic when I was playing them back then.

  3. Globatron.org
    October 21, 2009

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  4. Akbar Lightning
    October 21, 2009

    Yes, i am eagerly awaiting games that transcend the typical genres, as the technology is there, it just needs the talent. i played the demo for Mirror’s Edge (video below), and it is a blast, i am definitely going to buy it eventually, and it has very little violence in it, even though it does, the main focus is the acrobatics. and the graphics are beautiful and stylized, making for an aesthetic experience that is exciting and adventurous. these are the kinds of games of the future and i’m looking forward to more of them.


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