The shot heard round the world
was in my head as I was released instead
from this body of restraints as I sped
through a long vortex of light while my body still lay in bed.
I was being led by entities it would seem.
As they beamed knowledge and probed my body
inserting machines as if I were their long lost prodigy.
As if they had been patiently waiting for me.
Tiles of moving color of a geometric dome
enveloped me in a cocoon and welcomed me home.
I could sense my father as if he were right there.
As if he had been waiting, playing basketball near.
I could feel the energy that flows throughout the universe.
I could see in an instant stars and galaxies giving birth.
As I laid witness to infinity and its totality
I understood the pain and suffering and its banality.
I remembered the body I left as it lay down below.
I thought how silly this whole experiment had been.
How life is like waiting in line for a prize that we all win.
That the physical life is a price we must pay
To experience all of this beauty and eternity one day.
A calming light pulled me closely to it.
It told me without words not to forget.
That there are deeds left undone I still must do.
That I must go back down and love my family anew.
That I could always return to the light that I now know exists.
And then like a car bomb I was blown back down.
My consciousness hit hard and enveloped the ground.
As I opened my eyes I knew what I saw.
Sacred patterns illuminated a beautiful white dove.
That peace was inevitable and it comes from above.
Written in honor of the one year anniversary of my first brain surgery (12-10-08) and for all who have felt like they have experienced death and lived to tell the tale.